Depression, Anxiety, and Why We Need To Keep Talking About It All

Truth time: I have anxiety and depression. The anxiety has been a constant for awhile, but the depression is a new phase in my personal experience with mental illness. I have debated on how or if I wanted to say anything, to anyone, but I'm learning from therapy and experience that keeping it all inside…

The day I became the “old spouse”

I was sitting at a spouse dinner the other night, getting to know a brand new wife to our area and to our squadron. She had a ton of questions, all of which I felt I could accurately answer. She asked about deployments, TDYs, amenities and services around the base, etc...and I could answer her.…

How to shame spiral in 30 seconds or less (this is not a success story)

It always begins in the same way - and by that, I mean that I am doing something perfectly normal and routine, and the guilt hits me out of nowhere. The shame, the anxiety, the horror, the reliving and reimagining over and over again of a situation or event...and it comes out of nowhere. Today's…

Woes of the working mom

Last time I wrote, over 3 weeks ago, I had just started working again - huzzah!  Call me crazy, but I love working.  I like knowing that I am expected and needed somewhere outside of my home.  I enjoy drinking copious amounts of coffee as I dress, primp, and drive to work.  I really love…

My name is Rachel, and I’m addicted to books

I have a serious problem.  I love books.  I know I have written about this love affair before, so this is not a new revelation.  However, I am finally admitting what I should have long ago:  I may have a book obsession/addiction. How did I discover this?  Was it as I walked around the library…